My Angel,

(Directly from tumblr. Not quite sure of the exact date...)

Today was alright. Not good nor bad. I’m getting a little close to quiting smoking. Your daddy had a bad day, I think. He almost cussed this woman out in Walmart today. I’m not saying she didn’t deserve it, but I had to drag him away before someone got in trouble. She was standing in the middle of the aisle talking, while I am waiting there patiently waiting for her to move so i can grab a salad mix. She turned around and looked at me stupidly a few times, and your daddy got fed up. He had to get between the two ladies to grab what we needed, and he said “EXCUSE ME! You aren’t the only two people in the store!”

“Well SOWRY!” she said really sarcastically.

Shane said something smart allicky and turned around to walk to the registers- I can’t remember what and she says “ASSHOLE!” under her breath.

He turns around saying “I’m an asshole?- You are the one standing here looking at us stupid blocking the aisle way!” Anyways, she tried to follow us to the registers and start more crap then decided to go and tell the manager, like they were going to do something. Anyways, it was ridiculous. She should have not been looking at us stupidly, and just let us get what we needed and then none of it would have happened. ME? I’ll wait there impatiently until they move- I might get aggravated about it, but I’m not going to get my panties in a bunch over it.

ANYWAYS-

Just a little bit ago, I was outside.. my computer had just died, and I was fixing to come inside and go to bed when i saw the most beautiful thing (except you of course). It was the biggest, brightest, most beautiful, shooting star I had ever seen. I thought it could mean one of two things.

Either it was you telling me that you are okay and I shouldn’t worry about you, OR it was a free wish. Maybe both? Well I made a wish, and after that I am going to sleep a tad bit easier knowing you are okay.

I really hate you couldn’t be here to see these things, but I really want to take these as signs or ways for you to talk to me, rather than dwell on the fact you can’t see earth’s beauty. Me thinking negatively about beautiful things is not going to bring you back. That is why when I see a butterfly, I smile. It reminds me of you. I still cry for you, and grieve the loss of you. I will always, but I love you and I know these beautiful things are things you are sending to me letting me know you hear me when I talk to you, and hug me when I cry for you, and you love me as much as I love you. I love your gifts!

We miss you so much!

I love you, baby!

Love,

Mommy.