7 months, and Valentines day, and more.

Hello miss Serenity! I've missed writing you! I would have written sooner, but life has been very hectic around here for your daddy and I.

Tomorrow is your 7 months. I'm still very heartbroken, but I would just be repeating myself over and over again if I tried to specify how much. I really just have no words for tomorrow. Time won't stop because of what I would have to say, and it won't change whats happened. Just know that I love you.

In a few days will be Valentines day. Mommy is on bedrest right now, and daddy will barely allow me to move. So on his way home from work, he was supposed to stop at the store and get some cat food. When he got home he had a special surprise for you! Your very first Valentines day gift, and mommy some chocolates. He got you a little bear. Of course I cried when I saw it and he told me it was for you. What a great daddy you have!

                                                                                                                

In 10 short days it will one year from one of the happiest days of my life. The day I found out I was pregnant with you. 

I sent your daddy a text message. That was the only contents of that message. No words, just pictures. I figured that would explain it all. It did. He called me back a few short minutes later ecstatic, with his co-workers howling with excitement. Who knew MEN would get so excited over finding out their friend was going to become a dad for the first time. But they did. And we were just as excited, actually more so. I wish we could be as naive now as we were then. The beginning was really scary, but we had no clue what would happen only 6 short months later.

I love and miss you, yes still. After 7 months. No amount of time can take that away from us. You are the person who is on my mind the most. I don't know how things work up in heaven, but I hope you feel the same about me. And I also hope you know I did everything to my knowledge to keep you safe.

I ♥ you!